Raining Raining Raining

I have worked the last two days and the kid has been hanging out with her Daddy. Yesterday they came to see me at work and he had put a hat on her... she ALWAYS pulls her hat off if I put it on but if Daddy puts it on apparently it can stay! LHT said he used blue tack which made me feel a bit better. Today they came and she was in pj's. I didn't think she slept in those last night, she hadn't. Daddy dressed her in pyjamas for the day. And tonight he dressed her in day clothes and put them on back to front. Oh for the day I bath her and she doesn't shower with Daddy anymore, which is fast coming seeing as she weighs 8kilos now and she can reach just about everything in the shower which she shouldn't have. The shampoo only looks fun to play with Mummy's darling. But he does a great job and he is really involved so I'm not really bagging him... well no more than he deserves.

Speaking of which Julia Gulia's husband the Gympmeister said upon reading the blog, "I'm going to go and tell him to read the blog." Well so do I Mr, so do I and he doesn't so what can I do but continue to trick him. I am pestering at the moment for some new taps in the shower, which are sitting on the basin ready to be put in. The hot one is leaking and everytime I shower I burn myself (I know something new for me!) and we have had them for about two weeks now so it's time. I got my new shower head in about three days but I have not nagged as hard about the taps. Tomorrow I think he is having an RDO... so I'll see how I go tomorrow.

Freezing bloody cold

Today is freezing cold and absolutely pissing down with rain. I hate the rain and the cold. The rash on the pixie is a virus and she is a miserable little thing. The Polaramine we got yesterday the Dr said not to give her... so there goes Mummy's quiet time. ha ha ha Just kidding, I would need to give it to her and her father to have any quiet time and I think if I went back and got some adult strength they might get a bit suspicious. She is sooky and cranky and whinging and clinging. Mind you she is also warm and since I'm always cold in the winter I don't mind having another warm body to snuggle. Of course the only 'toys' she wants are things like the nail scissors or our phones or the remotes or the computer cord... and because she is sick she is acting like the biggest dying swan when I take them off her or move them from her reach. I do know that it is poetic justice because I suck so much when I am sick that my daughter now carries on... She has obviously got the "I'm the sickest person in the world" genes.

It has just occurred to me why FNL was not on last night... it was still thursday. It is on tonight. I will be snuggled up in my jammies in my bed under my mink blanket for them tonight, no part of me showing. I have to work tomorrow so I have to get up at 5 am in the freezing cold and rain. Goddam mortgage eh!!

The pixie is screaming and crying and grabbing handfuls of her hair, "the anguish, the anguish I feel Mummy, save me!" She makes me feel like the biggest superhero, lol. Once I get on my exercise bike tonight it will be 7 days and that is just such a fabulous start, I don't want to break it now. Wish me luck.

How to avoid feeling guilty.

So today is day six and it's still early so I'm not piking on my exercise, there's FNL on BB tonight to watch whilst I ride, and ride I must because I have fallen off the wagon today. I ate a burger which is bad for two reasons, the calories it contains and the bread which will make me sick. Now I feel sick and guilty and I think I have finally had another breakthrough in understanding how to not be fat anymore. If I eat crap I feel guilty, if I eat well, I feel good... it sounds so simple but anyone who has weight problems is more than aware it's not. It really is a mind set you need to be in order to lose weight. Usually what happens is I eat crap, feel guilty and then eat more crap because I feel bad and then I feel even worse and so it goes. Lesson learnt today. No more crap because it makes me feel bad and since I only get one go I am going to live doing things that make me feel good (or bad as the case at the time may be, he he he).

The Pixie is covered in a rash. The chemist says that it's an allergic reaction but I still think I will take her to the Dr tomorrow. It would be the public holiday when our Dr is closed that she comes out in a rash. At our swimming lesson, one of the other mums said her daughter had had something similar last week. The only thing she had yesterday she has never had before is a jar of Rogan Josh - if she is allergic to curry I am not sure what I will do with her!! I may need to swap her for another one!! (Yeah right as if I'm ever giving her away!) She has had some Polaramine and now she is very quiet and snuggly and cuddly. Maybe I will give her a daily dose!! I have to go and snuggle with her now because she loves me the best.

Exercising

You know what the good thing about exercising is? Is that if you do it, it stops the nagging feeling you have when you lie in bed at night that you have when you don't do it. I have just been on my exercise bike and that means it is now four days in a row that I have exercised. Hooray. I really like being able to go to sleep not stressing that I have done nothing again and that I am probably going to die of heart disease and obesity. Ever since my Mum died I am aware of how little time we really have. You know I worked out the other day that I have only lived a little over eleven thousand days. It's not much when you look at it like that is it? I am going to go and look at myself in the mirror now and see if I can see any weight loss and if not just tell myself I can so I can keep the motivation momentum going.

Uncharted

My cousin's band Bron-yr-aur Stomp is in the Uncharted competition. If you get a chance please go to www.uncharted.com.au and vote for his band. I have to go, I have a growth attached to my leg that appears to be weeping. I better get it something to eat!

Three days in a row...

I have exercised again today, I rode my exercise bike again today and have achieved three days in a row of at least thirty minutes physical activity. This is such a good start, this always happens though that I have a good start and then my motivation slowly dies. What do I do to keep it??? I have to try harder and try to keep my goals in mind. I have bought a lovely nightie from undercover wear in a smaller size to motivate me to fit into it. It may be coming to one of you eventually I guess. :(

I forgot to tell you that last week I got a speeding fine, it was in a school zone at quarter to four and there were no kids and I was going 51. Dam. I am so annoyed with myself because I don't really speed especially through school zones because of my own child and I always think I would like people to respect her when she is at school and slow down. So I handed over my licence and the copper came back to me and said, "Did you realise your licence had expired?" Well obviously I hadn't! It was then that I remembered getting the renewal form and tucking it away in my top drawer so the house looked tidy when some friends came over for a candle party a few weeks back. Bugger. I have not driven since and I have tried to do it online but since it has expired I can't... even though the copper said I could. So I still have not been to do it, but tomorrow is the day. I bet they don't take a new photo. That is another goal, lose enough weight I look different in my licence photo next renewal time.

Our back door has a lock and we have a key and we are all secure in our fortress now. Loving it. Big Mouth is on and my husband is waiting impatiently for me to join him to watch it in bed so I had better cut it off there for tonight.

Lovely new door

We have a lovely new back door. It has nice horizontal panel decorations and no windows so no one can look in at me whilst I am on the toilet now... now that that has ever happened but I have lived in fear of it. I will take a pic tomorrow and post it. I have to go and try out the new showerhead which has five different settings so I am a bit excited. We have had a productive day in the house, I have put rocks in the garden, and I have completely tidied our room and it looks just beautiful, the lounge room is tidy too. That is pretty exciting for me because I am trying to get the house unpacked completely after all this time and I am almost there. I almost do not have a gin's camp house. I can't wait to tell you all that the house is completely done and it all looks beautiful. Can't wait for the painting to start.

Exercise wise today I have moved the rocks, that counts, been for a walk along the beach and been for a ride on my exercise bike as well. I am feeling pretty healthy. Hooray. Okay off to try the shower. (Was a bit confused by I am Legend just to let you know how that went.)